Just 6 years to Sanju baba

Finally the verdict is out on Sanjay Dutt about his involvement in 1993 bomb blast. The !@#$%^&*() b****** youth icon could have had stopped whole bombing. His f****** knew about conspiracy but he sat on that information. He never had any threat from underworld. Generally, movie star are under threat from mobsters. On top of this, he can still appeal in supreme court.

This guy wept and shivered in TADA court, but what about those lives who are lost. Needless to say, B K Thakeray had helped Sanjay Dutt to get him out of court. It is very well known about the deal that happened between Shiv Sena and Late Sunil Dutt, father of Sanjay Dutt. Incidently, Sanjay Dutt's father used to run for election from the constituency in which I live. He is said to be having good behavior and he got convicted under Arms Act not TADA. I don't know what action Judge Kode is going to take on sting operation by a TV channel on the lawyer of Sanjay Dutt. It is very interesting that the person who gave, disposed and transported the arms to and fro Sanjay Dutt were charged and punished under TADA but he who kept arms at his home managed to skip the stringent law.

He is one of them and must be hanged. Court must set an example. The photos of Blast still linger in my mind very much. He could have had stopped it. Just because you are a honest, loved person doesn't warrant you right to help people who waged war against the nation.

I lied

I wanted to post this for 2-3 days but lazy. I had nothing important to do on Monday so was reading old mails. I happen to see the mail taht I had sent to Ashok (FIC HR) immediatley bfore the offer was rolled to me. There was a column for Reason(s) for Leaving and I had put "Not good exposure to Technology". What a joke. I never faced so many challenges in any MicroStrategy prject in my whole life till now. Loblaw came out to be best of best.

Accident pe accident

I travel to and fro office with Mayuresh as there is immense pain in last three toes if I drive (and good for both of us as we stay in same building). On 3 km stretch of inner ring road there is just one place to take U turn, so road is jammed durin peak hours near taht u turn. One can pass through the jam in 30-60 second (50 m stretch). Well, the scooty in line of my bike around 20 meters ahead of me skidded off on sand which had become line mud due to heavy rains very early morning. Mayuresh asked me to pick up the scooty. I was pretty afraid of picking up the bike due to the weak joints after accident and moreover I was not confident of picking up. This female had skidded off exactly the same location where I met accidnet, just another side of road.

We were destined to meet accident. Mayuresh had mood to have good tea and in whole area there was only one good place to have good tea : Hotel Gangotri. But we had to take a conventional, longer and heavily trafficted route to reach there. Generally, we take a short cut so as to avoid traffic. Around 70 meters away from the signal, he was at 55-60. He applied break. That was late braking, at least as per me. My braking is very smooth, specailly I know I have to stop. (common, it is red lights, I cna't ram into the cars and jump signal). Street lights were not working. Immediately after braking, bike ntered into a proper (and very dangerous) mud area around 20 meters long. Bike skidded mildy and he gain control of bike once again as Mayuresh released break. But he again applied break as he had to stop. Everytime he applied break bike skidded and everytime he released brakes he gain control. Bike was travelling in zigzag. This happened 7-8 times. He could not let bike brake relased and go smoothly as we had reached very close to the cars stopped at red lights. Finally he applied full brakes. Bike skidded and I fell off. While trying to jump (and land safly being injured in right leg), I strained my right thigh a bit. Bike got some scratches on leg guard and mirror. We escaped unhurt, lickily. One thing I must say, the accident was aviodable but Mayuresh handled it extrenely well too.

Monday Night Fever

When I reached home, I had felt extremely tired. Don't know that was due to lack of sleep or fever. I reached Comfort Home at 8:15. Planned not to watch TV. As soon as I lyed down on bed I fell asleep. I never get sleep so fast. I received a call from Karthik too, but was in deep sleep. I got up at almost 10. Strangly my hip, knee and ankle joints were in significant pain. It happend after a good break since I met accident. Knew that no good hotel would be open and I still had temperature, I though to just have sandwitch and juice at Juice Junction. Sandwitch as susual was tasteless, juice was great but was chilled, something I'm not suppose to have.

Pizza "Hut"

[19th July]
Hut - Get away in Hindi

I'm fond of Domino's pizza and never been to Pizza Hut which is a even closer than Domino's. But I thoguht pick up some pizza from Pizza Hut. I was told that it would be ready in 16 minutes.

Something I must say, Pizza Hut is more process oriented and people with smile. Pizza Hut Cash register is a chaos. They keep change in pockets. Mostly forget to or just don't give remaining change. And Pizza Hut is a proper Dine in Restarunt, where as Domino's is a Self Service. BTW, Koramangala branch is trying with a proper Dine-in concept. But, I still like Self Service.

Well, 27 minutes had passed and my patience was running out to wait. Someone named Kishore came and said that there was something wrong with Pizza cooking and he would require 5 minutes more to get it done. Damn annoyed of losing sight of my Credit Card for payment as the phone line at the cash register was not working, his refest just freaked me out. I just insisted taht I would rather like to goto Domino's and I asked him to cancel credit card payment. With persitent request he obeyed. I got a VOID SALE credit card receipt and left. Lucky, I was saved from eating pizza of Pizza Hut. Soemthing that I have liked on Pizza Hut is Garlic Bread Spicy Supreme, but they have chnage the recipey since I had for the first time at Hyderabad. It is not so Hot anymore and they use big pieces of Green Chillies. I really miss that.

When in Trouble, all troubles just looking for your address

[July 17th]

I asked my freind Mayuresh about the memebership of Ghar ka Khana (http://www.gharkakhana.net/gharkakhana/index.php) eatry. He said that one need to use the coupons (5 in number) withing 8 days of purchase. I found that to be quite managable. I eat to chains a lot and Koramangala is full of eating places. Maximum in whole Bangalore (http://bangalore.burrp.com/establishment/search.html?n=Koramangala)

I still have problem kicking the bike. Use my left leg to kick start the bike. All generation of Honda Unicorn have one problem : Start. Cold start is bad dream. You must give choke for a cold start. Sadly, after the repair, bike idle has been decresed to 0.9 to 1.0 instead of 1.3 to 1.4. So, I have more problem starting bike. I need to stand on my right leg when kicking bike. A painful experience.

Well, I finshed food and reached bike. I was struggeling to kick start bike. For no apparent reason, bike didn't start after 20 kicks. My right leg was in pain. I never faced such aproblem even with kick start. I rested for a while, gave full choke and restarted kicking bike. I was kicking with full force but in vain. Realy really frustrated. A guy who was near me saw me struggeling with kicking. He came forward and asked if I was injured and want help to start bike. Wow.... he was an angle.. I told him about my accident. That guy had met an injury with his left leg. [:)]. He kick started in 5-10 kicks. Still pretty high number of kicks. I sat on bike and switched on the lights. Wooooof... bike stopped... That guy was not far. He came once agian started the bike. I didn't keep bike in idle mode (neutral with no acceleration). I zoomed from there. A heavy day. My calf muscle was paining a lot. It seems my boone bruises have healed, otherwise muscle just above bone would swell quite good .

I need to get bike fixed for idling and speedometer shows wrong result. I came to know it next day.

Stop Billing

I seriously don't understand what does that mean. Billing... and Me. I'm not Stakeholder or DH at covansys to be doing or worried about Billing.

Well, I feel this decision was taken because I refused to come to office on Weekend :-) owing to tear in ligament. So far I have been coming on weekdays inspite of accident, but the moment I refuse to come, there is backlash like this. BTW, I havn't been doing anything for this project since last two and half weeks. This mail is just gonna make me feel down. they wanna convey to me "They can live without me", which I don't hink is impossible. But this kind of treatment is some what dishearteneing, specially by my PM, who is not a typical manager. He is a manager with ears, eyes and heart. I don't know who polluted him.

Just got a good liner from Priyanka on this situation.
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Being a good person is like being a GoalKeeper,
No Matter how many goals u save,
People will remember only the one, that u missed !!!!!

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Update 30th July

I met my PM after release letter being handed over. I always wanted to talk with him on this topic as why a (good) person like him will do somethng like this to me . I'll alwasy speak my mind. Well, he cleared that it was his own decision to put me out of project and gave me the reasons behind it. Not just convincing but true. I believe him very much. He remines me of my TL at Base Technologies. In factwhen I met hime for the first time, I was surprised (He looked very similar to Srikanth) and his (Pandian's) behaviour was very good .

Old Memory Lane: Really reminds me of my those days of BaseTech. It was a very small team of 5 people. All of age 21-22. Full of crazy ideas to do in life. Inspite of dot com doom, we used to think of doing something great. Well, I still talk about some ideas that we had planned then. Only deterrent was the money to initiate.

Dream On.. err... Hop On

something very true in case of me so far in my professional life......

Dream On by Aerosmith (was also performed by them when I attended their show on June 2nd at Palace Grounds)
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Everytime that I look in the mirror
All these lines on my face gettin clearer
The past is gone
It went by like dust to dawn
Isnt that the way
Everybodys got their dues in life to pay

I know what nobody knows
Where it comes and where it goes
I know its everybodys sin
You got to lose to know how to win

Half my life is in books written pages
Live and learn from fools and from sages
You know its true
All the things come back to you

Sing with me, sing for the years
Sing for the laughter, sing for the tears
Sing with me, if its just for today
Maybe tomorrow the good lord will take you away
(x2)

Dream on, dream on
Dream yourself a dream come true
Dream on, dream on
Dream until your dream come true
Dream on, dream on, dream on...

Sing with me, sing for the years
Sing for the laughter and sing for the tears
Sing with me, if its just for today
Maybe tomorrow the good lord will take you away

Why is He angry on me?

(writter on 26th June)

I just had a long argument (or fight) with Technology Director about my reaease by 13th of July. It went for long. As the last date is decided by Company, I was helpless, but more helpless I felt by his words "Do whatever you can". Well, I had no options to actually accept this words. For so many dasy, he had been avoiding specifically talking on my release date and when he was left without reasons/excuses I got this treatment. I just feel taht I'm doomed to be life this. Working in good
technologies, with lots of enthuasism but leaving my all employer on bad not. some time I feel bad about working in a hard to find technology, casue when you want to seperate, you have harrowing time or bad time.


When I was with Base, just out of college with crazy ideas. I used to still think of some venture even after the doom time and office mates were very much interested in it. Taht was a good serious time pass. But I left basetech after a bad treatment by Indian boss. He was a typical Indian Boss. Managing his brother's compnay in India and thinking people in Software are highly overpaid and to justify the salary must work for 25 hrs a day. and I would not sit in office more than 9 hours [:)]. So, one fine day I just thought to call it quit. I had come early the day I had decided to leave. My boss came at 11:30 and I left Base immediately after giving him an oral resignation and he said fine. Regret leaving. One big lession learnt, no matter what ever has happened, don't be emotional and leave unless you have an offer in hand. Only time applied : Covansys.

Then finally did CDAC. Hope to do some magic with new compnay, Cybage. Though, cybage is my most hated employer I just love MicroStrategy. MicroStrategy was the best soul satisfying work I have had. But my PL found me too much to handle. I would ask him to go by rules and regulations of company. He had good setting with the PM. Consistent ouperformer for months but was treated shabbily during my notice period. A person who could not be matched even though I didn't work for 5 motnhs for next appraisal at Cybage. Cybage did a lot of problem for my Full & Final settlement. My PL (Paramjeet Singh Sighu) went to extent of asking HR not to issue release letter, which I got pretty easily.

Enter Saama. Here work is already planned for next month. PM is technically quite well and I realized how good it can be when you have tech savvy PM, even though he had not done technical stuff for long. But, The ego of my TL took a big toll on me. My work was alwasys on scheduled but rest of team used to site last night on daily basis as there were a lot on under estimation, technical challenges, client was getting greedy and delay from client side. Wehn not having work, I would go on talking spree. He would make complaint to my PM, like this boy is browing google earth, maps, news for whole day. When my PM discussed this issue, I had just one reply, was there any problem with my work, quality of work and time line? but it became

a bit too much, when their delay started affecting me. They were handling SDK and ETL and I was doing MicroStrategy. I was not working with live data and wanted to check my work for long. My TL was technically super strong, he would kill you if you
notify him his even single mistakes. He somehow managed to sideline 9 year experience DBA for design for database during the initial phase. He had some mistakes and I knew that would impact MicroStrategy design. For quick reference that was Double counting error. Well, the issue had to come one day and he started blaming rest. even DBA. for his it was a sin if anyone left earlier than him. Well, I decided to leave him. Sadly the new project came for me when I had almost through the interview.

Now come Ivy, Offshoer development of PartyGaming. Loved everything about it. Flat hierarchy, good raise, good food, home just 2 km from home, 10 to 7 office, too much of new learning, lots of chichks (It had its call center), good experience MSTR people. Dream last just 50 days.

Covansys..... Mumbai.... Office @ JBNagaar.. Loved it for the same.... stones throw away from home...But decided to leave when the HR became to carelss and on top of that Technology director, asked to leave if I didn't like.

why me for all this trauma. People will have a first impression about me that I'm a kinda person whol love hopping job but every time I had genuine concernes. After my CDAC, I have seen biggest and fastest growth in career in terms od domain and package, but who the hell is realy interested in hopping. Those bastards made my life hell at Cybage else MSTR still my best work. I'm gonna join a new job son with salaray more than 5 times of what I received at Cybage 3 years back, but mamma wants me to come to Bombay for mere 1.2 lac PA. That's acceptable.

"Significat" NO tear in knee muscle :-)

On 19th of June, I was ------- happy. I had worked till 3:30 AM morning and had come home. Got up by 11:30 and rang Santhosh. He could not confirm if ther were any new issue with reports, but the work that I had done till early morning was very satiafying and I knew no more new issues would come up unless BRD changes or functioal changes. Well, I was driving too fast being happy. On Inner Ring Road, on of the deadliest turn I was too fast to handle the turn and collided with devider. Deep bruses on right arm and severe pain in rihgt knee. "I am surrounded by people and the traffic has come to halt. I'm able to walk." One guy lifts the bike and gets it on the foot path side. Everyone looking at me. All asking if I need to be taken to hospital. I found myself in walkable condition with some pain and bruises and opt to goto office driving that screwed up bike and get medical attention from office doctor. I guy offered following me till the office which I readily accepted. He took his route when I took a U turn for office. God bless him for his much needed care.

Upon seeing those deep bruises, the assistant doctor get scared. For first time in my life I saw a scared doctor. I cleap up the injury with a solution before anotaher soluction is applied on the injuries by her. Main doctor was pretty fine with the injuries and suggested a oinment to be applied every morning. I came to my desk. Everyone was shocked to see those injuries. I hadn't taken the injection as suggested by Dr., as I'm damn damn scared of needle. Finally I get help from Pradip. He comes along while getting a titnus injection. It was not at all painful, luckily.

After the call, I asked my Service Line Manager (DW/BI is a service line here at Covansys) if he could arrenge me a cab for St John. Lucky me. I went to Hospital and got myself checked in Orthopedic OPD. He suggested me two X-Rays. Nothing was abnormal in those. No broken or fractured bones. But he caustioned me if the pain in rihgt leg would not ease in next 10 days, I would require some more treatment. I took that by pinch of salt. I could walk very well, till next day morning.

when I got up next day, there was tooooooooooo much of body pain. I was hit by helmet several times when it impacted on the ground. I had some pain on skull and face. Whole body was paining. I called up my Manager and told him about my inability to come to office.

These days and even now are like an agony. I never faced anything like this (being alone in a tough time). Brought up in a highly protective environment. Haven't told my parents about this accident yet.

30 June, Saturday, Right knee still in quite some pain. I get the bike stationed at the Service Station at Jakkasandra. As the head light was broken had come off from the front casing, it had very scary look. Everyone along the way from Office to Station gave me staring looks. A guy called Charan gave me the address and procedure for filing claim. Pretty nice of him. I reached home and went to St John Hospital in same rick. Dr. Rajkumar examined me again. I asked me to tighen the kne cap keeping the leg straight. I had terrible pain while doing do. Apart from this, I had pain in calf muscle. He suggected me a chnage in medication and MRI.

MRI center was too scary. There is a giant hole in which your body will be passed and that machine makes scray noice while generating the magnetic waves.

when I came back home after MRI, I inspected my helmet. It had worn many places. Scratches were 1 mm deep at two places and not to forget n number of scratches. I'm writing this blof because of that helmet. I was in tear when I saw the codition of helmet even now while writing all these. ----... what a life man... why the ---- i was too fast for taht turn. So much of pain and trouble.. I learnt my lesson when I saw my helmet. I am not sure if I would goto my planned 30 days adventure going around places in India in Nov-Dec.

I could not goto see Dr on Monday as there was work. Left early on Tue and collected the MRI report. OPD DR (Rajkumar) found a descripency in the report. For one of the muscle, MRI Dr wrote no tear as well as significant tear. Dr Rajkumar asked me to return the report and get the fresh report with correction. I did so.

Next day (4th July), I could not reach in time to OPD and so thought not to get the report as carrying those A3 size images would not be easy and I ahd to bring them in OPD next day itself.

Just confirmed that report is ready and would be available. Also I'm leaving by 6 PM office bus (it's last stop happens to be St John Hospital). And my bike has been inspected by insurance company.