Nameless fear

Yesterday while waiting for fellas of Bangalore Motoring Club (BMC), I spoke with Sa and we had a nice discussion about commitment, emotional investment, love and fear. She is totally different kinda person. She can't take risk and I always lived and live on edge. For her dating and love or filmy stuff and one should stay away from it. She laughs away when she sees people in park. Viola! and she found herself on the other side when me met. I had said once "I always do what my heart says" and "She is my parent's choice". These two things make her feel insecure and she doesn't want to be attached and doesn't want to get feeling of it. Well! it is a fault from both side. may be not. It is just different thinking. It can change with time. It can worse or even better. Don't know what future holds. BTW, I need to describe her in one word. Thinking. The phone got cut when I was speaking. SIM has a problem. It would disconnect exactly after 30:01 minutes. I can prove it, but don't want to.

Well, I always do what my heart says but I would be very reasonable than most sane person. But the fear thing was very bad to hear. Either I trust some one unconditionally or don't trust. Things are not really good; at least I don't feel good about the whole thing. I hate people when they don't 101% trust me as I don't waste my time thinning evil. Only evil mind (who know about evil things) don't trust. Some fear.... why?? I'm puzzled.

BTW, may be time to say good bye to BMC has come. Meet got canceled. Guys wasted my 3 hours.